I worked at Laravel for 6 years. I missed all Laracons and several opportunities to meet people I admire. I also missed the feeling of inclusion and recognition from a community I worked really hard to be part of (and in a way, build).
This isn't a post to go through all the reasons why I missed all that. I think many of you already know it. Given where I come from.
I just want to share that a year ago, I took an oath to do everything I can so that my son's checklist for a conference that he wants to attend would be like this:
All the complications that I've been dealing with have massively decreased my opportunity to live the life I wanted for myself. And that's fine. It is what it is. But it doesn't have to be like this for my son.